Finding Love in Recovery - Important Factors in Learning How to Love in Recovery

Sometimes in early recovery, when you know thatown issues and let go of responsibility for others'
you are "working a good program", you may feel likeissues. When you engage in a new relationship
something is still missing. You're still clean and sober.without these much needed relationship skills, you
You are going to meetings. You are showing up forendanger your fragile recovery. Think about it. What
work everyday. You are starting to get your billsdo alcoholics and addicts do when they have
caught up. The important people in your life areemotional pain, conflicts, or feelings and problems that
remarking about how well you are doing. Yet, therethey don't know what to do with? They use alcohol
still seems to be an absence of something important.or other drugs to fix it, or escape from it.
We may not be developing the kind of serenity orOne of the ways that entering into a romance can
peace of mind that we had hoped for. We maysabotage recovery is that your routine changes as
entertain the notion that we will be happy when weyou incorporate the new person into your life and
find that magical something outside of ourselves thatyour schedule. You have probably worked pretty
will make us whole. Romance is one of those magicalhard to set up the structure and daily routine that
somethings that is frequently called upon to producenot only helps with maintaining your abstinence and
instant happiness.recovery, but that also helps to build self-discipline
It is not uncommon for newly recovering addicts toskills. Twelve step meetings may give way to
sabotage their fragile sobriety by entering intorendezvous.
romantic relationships before they are ready. ThereRomance with another recovering person is
are many important early recovery tasks. One that isparticularly precarious, especially when you both go to
important to successful relationship skill developmentthe same 12 step home group. Relationships require
as well as abstinence maintenance, is thesome of the same coping skills and resources that
development of a new identity.sobriety requires. While you are learning these new
This happens over time in recovery. In this process,living skills and applying them to recovery, you are
the old identity of drinker/user gives way to the newsimultaneously called upon to work through old
identity of drinker/user who is not drinking/using.unresolved relationship issues. In order to have
That identity is eventually replaced with a broaderhealthy relationships in recovery, you must resolve
identity of a multifaceted individual who is recovering,old emotional relationship baggage. Otherwise, you
and whose life is defined by many things includingwould tend to repeat the past.
recovery. In order to be able to be truly intimate in aHaving a health relationship in recovery demands that
relationship you have to have s clear and comfortableyou develop a solid sense of self, mind your priorities,
sense of self. It is hard to be in a relationship withwhich should continue to be recovery, and practice
someone else when you can't feel comfortable innew living skills.
your own skin.Sponsors really come in handy as you grapple with
When we don't have a firm, positive sense of self,taking on a romantic relationship in early recovery. As
we may enter into romantic relationships on a sort ofwe turn to sponsors to help us navigate other
"self-finding" mission, only to discover later that weturbulent waters of early recovery, so can we use
have actually lost ground in that endeavor.experienced guidance in the realm of developing
Sometimes we look to our significant other as anintimacy skills. It is particularly important to have as a
extension, reflection or definition of self. There is alsosponsor someone who seems to have some solid
the possibility of transferring our dependency on ourrecovery in the area of relationships. If you have
higher power to that significant other.never learned intimacy skills, you may not know the
For at least the first year in recovery, the primarydifference between healthy and unhealthy
focus of a recovering addict's life should berelationships. Hopefully, your sponsor can guide you
developing a solid foundation for recovery. This wouldthrough the process when it is time.
involve going to many meetings, acquiring and using aYou can recover in the area of relationships. As you
sponsor, being of service to others, and learning howfind yourself recovering to greater and greater levels
to replace the chemical with healthy living skills.of "wellness", you will notice that the people that you
One of the most important living skills to beare attracted to, and that are attracted to you, have
developed is relationship skills. Relationship skills includealso achieved similar levels of wellness. If you don't
ability to effectively communicate and problem solve,have a clear sense of self, aren't able to take care of
ability to put yourself in others' positions (role taking),most of your own needs, and don't know you want
ability to ask for what you want and need directly,from yourself or others, then you are probably not
ability to trust, ability to appropriately identify,ready to be in a healthy relationship yet. Work on
communicate and work through feelings, ability toyour own issues. When you're ready, there will still be
manage stress, ability to take responsibility for one'stime.